4.30.2010

on the other hand, you have five fingers.


to make up for all the nasty negative nancy-ness (say that 5 times fast) :



all my nieces and nephews are the cutest. there's another on the way!...and i like that.

its really green here...and i like that.

i had to go to the principal's office for a meeting. he gave me candy...and i like that.

there is fresh pineapple in the fridge right now...and i like that.

i can parallel-park my car in just one move...and i like that.

my adult client and i talk about economics, social ideas, and the environment...and i like that.

jonny loves to snuggle me in the morning...and i like that.

this week, we swam laps in a glorious chlorine pool...and i like that.

today is friday...and i like that.


:)
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what do you like?


4.29.2010

unlucky thirteen.

13 days. then i am free. can i make it? i'm not sure...

ever have a day when you just hit a brick wall? you run at 100mph until you slam bam crash. there is too much too much too much. so you give up. you want to throw your bag out the window, crawl into bed, hide from the world, and quit everything?
that was today.
i stink.
our house stinks.
my grades stink.

i allowed myself to freak out for a good 5 minutes. then i took a deep breath, cleaned up the house, took a shower, and ran out the door. i was productive. and i smell like flowers.
i feel marginally better.
they say its normal to feel this overwhelmed, burnt out, stress crazy, stirred out, (or, wait..was it the other way around?)...whatever. to feel like this. often. that if you are not thinking about quitting grad school, you are not thinking.
at least i know my neurons are firing. albeit slowly or erratically.

today, one of my 4th grade boys said this bit:
"girls talk about boys. boys just talk about gross stuff."
still true. always true.
kids make me laugh. i love them.

maybe i can blame it on studying disordered behavior in depth...
but i am a crazy, emotional basketcase. often.
remember that next time you think my husband isn't wonderful.
<3

goodnight moon.


4.28.2010

snaz.posh.swank.





Our scuffed-up sneakers, sweatshirts and worn backpacks felt a little out of place... next to long black overcoats, dark briefcases and shiny leather loafers.
We drove past the valet parking and into the garage of lowly self-park. We bypassed the bell captain, the concierge, and checked in at the main desk, surprised when the suited gentleman informed us that we would be staying on the executive floors, and to take some special elevators. We'd be sure to find them...'just go past the grand ballroom and turn right at the chandeliers'.

We spent an amazing weekend at the Chicago Hilton, an historic hotel on Michigan avenue, with breathtaking views of the lakefront. Obama even had his first press conference here after being elected to the Presidency. And Harrison Ford filmed the ballroom scene here in The Fugitive! I was a little star struck. (no, i'm not being paid to advertise for them...but maybe i should look into that). Jonny's parents (both educators) flew in for a conference with IRA, the International Reading Association. Jonny's dad is on the board of directors and gave several presentations. Thanks to his VIP status, us peons got to live the life of luxury for 2 whole days. This involved lots of walking, delicious food (try this place), hottubbing, exploring, speed window shopping and museum browsing.
Jonny, his mom and I braved the wind and rain to explore the beautiful city of Chicago. We were inspired by the architecture of the old Fine Arts building. We rode an antique elevator with an (human) operator! We happened upon a youth orchestra rehearsal, and I felt like I was on the movie set of "Step Up", or {insert name here of movie about disadvantaged boy with talent meets rich girl in art school}. It almost made me want to move to a big city and live in an older tinier beautiful-er apartment. Almost.

The Art Institute was AMAZING, as was the Museum of Science and Industry. Jonny was like a kid in a candy shop.

Thank you Thank you to Mom and Dad Young for a wonderful time in Chicago!
We wish we could spend time with you more often, we LOVE you. Nothing can replace the feeling of being with family.
And it was so nice to have a change of scenery.
Thanks to the sights and sounds of a new, interesting place. We are rejuvenated.
I like feeling metropolitan once in a while.







filling and yum


a breakfast smoothie:
a big ripe banana
4 frozen strawberries
a few scoops of vanilla yogurt
a sprinkle of oatmeal
a tid bit of milk
a spoonful-ish of pe
anut butter

(yes, these are exact measurements)
.blend.
.enjoy.



ps. isnt everything in life just grand when the weather is nice? we love mr. golden sun

4.22.2010

EARTH DAY!

Take a moment to appreciate the beautiful earth that was created for us.
Look around you.
Wonder at our planet's beauty, majesty and diversity,
From the tiniest flower petal to the most powerful ocean wave.

You can do something small today.
Help preserve the earth for our children and grandchildren.
Check out this site. Be inspired to take action.
What you do DOES matter.
Every little bit counts!
Happy Earth Day.


4.21.2010

bah!

frustration.
i still can't get blogger to upload pictures. what is wrong?

i know you've all been missing me.

its been a while.
there is nothing huge to blog about.

i could tell you that we've painted the blue chairs brown. but can't seem to find the time to finish the seats. stay tuned.

i could tell you that we have some wonderful friends here...all of which are young couples with dogs (no kids yet). and that i'm still obsessed with petfinder, and still having dreams about puppies, and waking Jonny up at night to tell him i thought of another great name for 'our dog' which we don't have...and that he still loves me (somehow) and puts up with it.

i could tell you about how we spent 2 hours last night making an 'orienteering' course for the boy scouts. and i learned that metal attracts magnets in the compass, and the difference between 'magnetic' and 'true' north....and i thought about how the earth turns, the constancy, the wonder that is creation and universe and felt very very small.

i could tell you about how the weather has been absolutely gorgeous, daffodils and tulips are everywhere, and we love spring. i drove with my windows down last week, wind whipping my hair, sunglasses on, and (half) naked people running everywhere. glorious. i'm looking forward to summer with every beat of my California heart and soul.

i could tell you about how we are making it through the last few crazy weeks of the semester, counting down to the end and counting our blessings: the opportunity to be here and go to school together, learning so much and increasing our earning potential...and the fact that one school year is under our belts. have we really been here for a year? we don't feel so much like strangers.

i could tell you about how we scored a used washer/dryer set for a great price, and can't wait to set it up in our new apartment in a few weeks. (remember our laundry woes? stolen clothes, wet armfuls, broken machines, lost quarters...). its been about 8 years since Jonny has had laundry in his actual living space. 4 for me. we no longer have to be green with envy of those of you who only have to lug your dirty clothes down the stairs or into the next room!

i could tell you that Jonny's parents are coming to Chicago this weekend and we are beyond excited to spend some time in the windy city with them! now, if we could only find a way to get up there that doesn't cost an arm and a leg...(parking in chi-town is ridonkulous.)

i could tell you that we had the missionaries over for dinner and my madeup southwest-chicken dish turned out amazing (if i do say so myself). they encouraged us to share what we believe with our friends and those around us...i thought a lot about life and religion and the existence of God. i still have faith, even if its not the most popular thing to do nowadays.

i could tell you that i've been feeling very creative lately. or at least wistful for creativity. wishing for the time/money/skills/tools to make it happen. decorating, sewing, composing, painting, gardening, photographing...you name it, i want to try it. now if i could just be done with this thing called graduate school that takes over our lives...reaches into every corner and every pocket and every second and has the power to pull me back, just as i'm on the verge of escape.

BUT...all of that is kinda boring without pictures!
sorry. guess i told you anyway.

here's a happy thought (...maybe there is hope for me):
"Too many people believe that creativity is a talent with which some people are born and the rest of us can only envy. This is a negative attitude that is completely mistaken. Creativity is a skill that can be learned, developed and applied."~Edward de Bono

:)

4.12.2010

Chair Makeover Part 1: SAND

I know you've all been waiting....

Prep: We went to Home Depot and bought sandpaper, a brush, a can of paint, and a can of poly.

1. We hauled all the blue chairs out to our little patio.
2. With an easy 1-2 pop we unscrewed the tattered rush seats from all 4 chairs.
3. Jonny managed to cut the rush off of one seat, so we'll have a nice frame to use for a reference when we cut our new seats.
4. Wearing proper sanding attire, of course. Trying to keep from inhaling too much blue dust.
5. Because we are too cheap to buy an electric sander, and too zealous to wait and borrow one from someone else, we HAND-sanded all four chairs. That's right, people. We are tough. (I have a major cramp in my right hand now...)
5. After a couple hours of sufficiently scrubbing and scratching down the chairs in every nook and cranny, we and our patio were covered in blue dust.
6. Smurf-like, we wiped down each chair with a slightly damp rag to get rid of all the blue dust particles.
7. Clean-up. Swept up the rush and blue stuff and smashed into a plastic bag.
8. Chairs are lugged back into the house for safe keeping until we have time for Part 2. Stay tuned!
(I almost like them just how they are. Don't you love that distressed look?)

( I wanted to post all the photos here, but for some reason Blogger is not cooperating. Sorry! I've been trying all week. Anyone else had this trouble? See our pictures here!)

4.08.2010

toast. and other thursday thoughts

(oops. its friday already. yay!)
To toast, or not to toast. That is the question.

Jonny likes to toast things. Everything. Almost anything that goes in his mouth should be warm, and a little bit golden on top. Me? Not so much.

His thing about toast:
Why would you eat anything cold and plain when you can have it warm, melty, ooey-gooey goodness? Or Perfectly crispy crunchy?

My thing about toast:
Why would you take a good, fresh, soft piece of food and practically vaporize it?! Or at the very least, make it taste dried out and scratchy?

What do you think? Are you a toaster?
(note: we recently acquired a 'vintage' toaster oven from Katie's generous parents. it just may change my mind about toasting.)

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Other thoughts:
After much thought, personal reflection, and meditation on the matter, I have come to this conclusion: I think too much.

At any given point, I have a at least a handful of ideas bopping around in my head. And lately, I've been thinking, about thinking. Multitasking is not as efficient as one might think. Listen to this, or this if you are interested.

Because I'm essentially studying about human behavior and how to change it...what is genetically 'hard wired' and what is caused by 'outside' factors, what is automatic and what is chosen, what can be learned and what degenerates, etc...I think about thinking. And what the brain does. And how it makes us who we are. And how amazing it is. (note: How could we not have a divine Creator? How could something that complex just have appeared from a cloud of smoke and dust? Impossible, if you ask me.)

I want to learn to slow my brain down. To have better focus. I wonder if I need to pick up and move to a remote, tropical island to do this? Or completely change my lifestyle? Or perhaps just be better about including relaxation in my life (for mind and body).

Also, I tell you about my thoughts. That helps, I think.

Is life meant to be a giant balancing act? You can ask anyone you know (or don't know, for that matter), how many things they have to keep track of on a daily basis. Their list is probably just as long as yours. Why? Why is life so fast and crowded? Why can't we just say 'no' to one more activity, one more responsibility? A professor at Harvard, Tal Ben-Shahar, who teaches Positive Psychology says this:

"Simplify! We are, generally, too busy, trying to squeeze in more and more activities into less and less time. Quantity influences quality, and we compromise on our happiness by trying to do too much."

Can you tell I'm on an NPR kick? Read one of these articles about leisure time, if you have a minute. ;) Interesting.

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One last thought. Its about Money.

I hate money. I'm fighting a battle with it. I'm not sure who is winning. I wish there was some other way to buy and trade and for everyone to have the things they need. Such is the pain of living in a free capitalist society, I suppose.

Anyway, yesterday I had an enlightening experience. A rare occurrence. Rare, at least, for me. You see, I usually grocery shop once a week or once every 2 weeks...we buy a bunch of food and try to make it last as long as possible. However, this week I did something I never do. As a result of a last minute dinner party scheduling, I actually went to the grocery store and left with 1 brown paper bag full of food for just one dinner.
This gave me the unique opportunity to compare it directly to the cost of a single meal 'eating out'.

For all the veggies for a big salad, breadsticks, pasta, sauce, ground beef, and icecream bars for dessert, I paid $14.47. That's awesome. A three course meal, for 4 people.
(and we had leftovers of everything! we can easily make another salad, and i'll be having spaghetti for lunch for 2 days. there are still 8 icecream bars in the freezer. :)

Think about 4 people eating out at a restaurant. I'm not even talking about fine dining. Try T.G.I. Fridays, or Chilis, or even McDonalds, or even....dun dun dun..Taco Bell (the cheap master). I bet you can't do it.
I bet you can't get 4 people completely stuffed full and satisfied (plus dessert!) with $13.47. (and DON'T forget to leave a tip! I'm obviously a stickler about that.)
For 4 people, I bet Chilis would cost about 40$ (that's a conservative estimate), then you add the 20% tip and it is about $48.00.
48.00-14.47= $33.53 WOW!
(I know spaghetti is cheap, and buying 4 steaks might even out this difference...but still.)
30 dollars?
  • You could buy a new pair of shoes! Or a framed art print for your wall, or (less excitingly) a whole tank of gas, or 2 big bags of dog food.
  • Do this twice and you could buy a nice leather purse or a bench for your patio.
  • Do this three times and you could almost buy a longboard, or that new acoustic guitar you've been eyeballing.
  • Do this for a year and think about how much money you'd have in the bank! (cut out 'eating out' once a week: 30 x 52=$1560!) You could book that cruise, pay off a chunk of your loans, or walk away with a new flatscreen!
Looking at the opportunity cost always helps me gain perspective. Keeping big goals in mind (a family trip, a college savings, a downpayment for a house...what ever is important to you), can really keep frivolous daily spending at bay.

Ok, I'll stop, I'm starting to sound like Suze Orman. But you get the idea.

We don't go out to eat very often. But we could do better. I LOVE going out to eat as much as the next person, don't get me wrong. But with this unexpected experiment, I am even more convinced by how much money we are wasting by paying a restaurant for greasy expensive food.
Here's to cooking at home more often.


what am i, an old lady?


HELP!
we feel like this...



Since our amazing Italy trip last May, Jonny has been in pain. Lots of it. In his feet. Even sitting still on the couch, its a dull pain. If he stands all day at work in the cleanroom, or if we spend a few hours walking around, his feet will be throbbing all night. The Dr. said he has plantar fasciitis. He went to a specialist this summer and got custom orthotics. That cost a bundle. He wears them 24/7. Its been almost a year. Still in pain. Still can't run. He misses it. A lot. Help?

For the last month or so, I've been having a sharp pain in my right heel. After buying some 7$ Dr. Scholls gel heel cushions, my heel feels a little better, but the pain seems to have migrated up the outside of my foot. Jonny thinks its because I wear cheap flats from Payless and Target. And I wear too-high heels. And sandals with no support. Yeah, so what? I'm 22 years old! Should I really be moving on to Naturalizers already? I love shoes. (remember this?). I don't want to give them up yet. Plus, I'm supposed to be training for this! Help?


Spring has finally sprung!!!!!
And we are so excited. Spring means...pretty colors, fresh flowers, and sunshine!
Playing in the park! Wearing sandals! Running outside!

Not for us. We are a sad sight to see. Old feet on young bodies. Soaking in bowls of hot water.


Any ideas? Magic cures? Anyone had something similar?

PS> UPDATE: Funny how I had no idea when I was posting this yesterday that it was officially "One Day Without Shoes" day. See their site here.

4.04.2010

Easter.

Last night, I was feeling a little nostalgic.
I was missing the family traditions that I grew up with. Mostly, the night-before-easter Egg contest!
My Mom, my sisters and I would all get together in the kitchen to color hard boiled eggs. My dearest Mother sacrificed and prepared all of the dyes with vinegar, in little mugs, even though the smell of it made her want to gag. Then, the competition began. We went all out. I'm talking 3 colors per egg, or hand-painted flowers, or white crayons first to make a stenciled effect. None of this shrink-wrap nonsense. We kicked it oldschool. It was art.

Of course there was some bickering over who was hogging whatever color of dye and to get their egg out, "but it isnt dark enough yet!". There was also some stealthy hiding of the technique, so that no one else would see what you were planning to do with your egg. We each decorated a handful, in case one showed up with a crack or got dyed completely brown from a poorly chosen color mixture. But in general, we always had a great time just being together and talking, crowded around the kitchen island, and the delicateness and mess of it all. Those little wire octagons and the 'plop' of a pure white egg when it first hits a pool of bright color. I miss it.
But where was Dad, you say? He was missing out on all of the family fun!..... Hiding. In the next room. He was not allowed to see the artists and their art before the final product was complete!

When all of the eggs had been thoroughly colored and/or Mom said time was up (after all, we couldn't stay up all night doing this, the 'easter bunny' had to get up at the crack of dawn...), they would all be placed randomly in a big egg carton and taken to the table. That was when 'The Judge' would arrive, in all his majesty. My wonderful Dad, always the diplomat, was perfect for the role. We would sit with hands over our mouths to keep from squealing, bated breath, toes wiggling inches from the floor, darting eyes. We weren't allowed to make a peep while Dad was judging. This way he had no 'daughter bias'. He could not know who colored which eggs, thereby making him a fair observant. He would handle each egg very daintily with his strong, rough fingers. He would make a comment or two about each one. Always positive. Even the ugliest of eggs could get a "wow, this one has some very unique colors!" from Dad.
Then he would sort them, the ones he liked best would get into the 'Top 10'. The others were politely set aside (with some inadvertent grunting from the artist(s)). He would mull over them again, individually, commenting on the artistry and the color choices and he would narrow it down to the 'Top 5', then the 'Top 3' and finally, the Prize egg of the year. He was tricky, our Dad. Some years he chose the most intricate one, with drawings all over it, and some years he'd pick one dyed a solid hue, saying that it was perfectly even-toned in his favorite shade of blue.
After all the eggs had been separated, he would get out his lead pencil (he's an engineer, famous for having writing utensils always in a breast pocket), and gently write on the tip of each egg... maybe '.10', ten cents for the eggs that made the Top 10. Then '.15' fifteen cents for the ones in the Top 5, and up until the runners-up and the Prized egg usually won about a quarter. Man were we excited. (As we got older, the prize-money went up, to account for inflation, of course. But not by much. I can't think of a year the #1 egg went for more than a dollar.)

But here was the catch. Even if you created the prize egg, you didn't get the money! After we all burst from the seams and blabbed to Dad about whose egg was which and whined a little and finally consented that the Prize egg really was the prettiest and most perfect, Mom would whisk them all away, telling us that the Easter Bunny would know where to find them.
In the middle of the night, he (the E.B.) would hide them in the yard and/or around the house. Then, we would dash around with our baskets, carefully picking up eggs and shouting out how much money was written on the tip. There was a significant ruckus whenever someone found the #1 egg. After we had found all of them (Mom always took count so there wouldn't be an old egg found weeks later stinking up behind the TV or something), we would add up the cents in our basket, and Dad would bring out his jar-o-change and pay up. Therefore, someone else could get paid for your artistic work, because they were the one to find it Easter morning. Not in compliance with copyright laws, but more fun and absolutely better in the long run.
The more I reflect on this tradition, the more I see how genius it was. My parents are amazing. I'm glad they humored us by letting us do it each year. I hope to do it with my children one day.

But as I sit here childless, on Easter morn, there are no eggs to find and no basket full of chocolates to munch through (Jonny bought me a beautiful white Easter Lily plant instead!). And I am thankful. The sun is shining and I am reflecting on the true reason for this day. Eggs and chocolate and bunnies are all fun and games, but I'm thinking about Jesus Christ.

I know that He lived and lives again. I know that He atoned for my sins, sorrows, sicknesses and heartaches. I know that He died for me. I know that He set the supreme example of how to live a loving, perfect life. I know that through Him, anything is possible. I know that because of Him, I can overcome spiritual and temporal death. I know that He knows and loves me. And each of us. I am so thankful for Him, my Savior and Redeemer.
This is one of my favorite hymns:

I know that my Redeemer lives.
What comfort this sweet sentence gives!
He lives, he lives, who once was dead.
He lives, my ever-living Head.

He lives to bless me with his love.
He lives to plead for me above.
He lives my hungry soul to feed.
He lives to bless in time of need.

He lives to grant me rich supply.
He lives to guide me with his eye.
He lives to comfort me when faint.
He lives to hear my soul’s complaint.

He lives to silence all my fears.
He lives to wipe away my tears.
He lives to calm my troubled heart.
He lives all blessings to impart.
http://www.free-lyrics.org

He lives, my kind, wise heav’nly Friend.
He lives and loves me to the end.
He lives, and while he lives, I’ll sing.
He lives, my Prophet, Priest, and King.

He lives and grants me daily breath.
He lives, and I shall conquer death.
He lives my mansion to prepare.
He lives to bring me safely there.

He lives! All glory to his name!
He lives, my Savior, still the same.
Oh, sweet the joy this sentence gives:
“I know that my Redeemer lives!”

He lives! All glory to his name!
He lives, my Savior, still the same.
Oh, sweet the joy this sentence gives:
“I know that my Redeemer lives!”

I hope you can all take time today to think about Jesus Christ, and thank your Heavenly Father for His mercy, grace, love, and for sending His Son...for us.