ever have a day when you just hit a brick wall? you run at 100mph until you slam bam crash. there is too much too much too much. so you give up. you want to throw your bag out the window, crawl into bed, hide from the world, and quit everything?
that was today.
i stink.
our house stinks.
my grades stink.
i allowed myself to freak out for a good 5 minutes. then i took a deep breath, cleaned up the house, took a shower, and ran out the door. i was productive. and i smell like flowers.
i feel marginally better.
they say its normal to feel this overwhelmed, burnt out, stress crazy, stirred out, (or, wait..was it the other way around?)...whatever. to feel like this. often. that if you are not thinking about quitting grad school, you are not thinking.
at least i know my neurons are firing. albeit slowly or erratically.
today, one of my 4th grade boys said this bit:
"girls talk about boys. boys just talk about gross stuff."
still true. always true.
kids make me laugh. i love them.
maybe i can blame it on studying disordered behavior in depth...
but i am a crazy, emotional basketcase. often.
remember that next time you think my husband isn't wonderful.
<3
goodnight moon.
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